Unknown & Uncertainty are the scariest factors that pulls one down in life path...
Once, I remember thinking about "lost" is when u feel you are getting nowhere & being a nobody in life.
When I fell, I will try to climb up again..because I hate being left out. (imagine u fell down a hole & no one knows, no one to help or rescue u..but still u had to get out of that pit all by urself, alone.) Definitely it's scary, u'd cry for help but at the end of the day u will be independent.
In life, everyone wants to get to different places. Some walk quickly in front, others walk side by side together in the middle, a few will be left out at the back..and turns out to be the Last to reach the destination. Hence, no matter what or how..don't ever think of "Giving up". If you did, you will be back to the same dark hole again, back to square 1 again. If you are determine to go through the tough times, there you'll find some others who are also as lost as you. But you've company, you're not alone.
Under some circumstances, I choose to go my own way & leave the "group", cause the feeling of some people intentionally leaves you or ignores u is unbearable. Well because there are times when some people, whom dislikes you because of any reason they can find.
At times, you've to part with the rest of your loved ones as you don't need to always depend on others, there's a saying 天下没有不散的宴席. To be separate from them makes you a even Stronger person.
Uncertainties can be a real headache to me. (I dunno what I want to be)
Impossibilities are elsewhere, still I want to reach out to it.
The Unknown is frightening. (Is when I know what I need but can't get it yet)
Possibilities are everywhere, yet I'm afraid to go for it.
On my life path, there's never a straight path ahead. It's not entirely narrow nor crooked, stones can be found somewhere among borders..I walked & am still walking along it. I'd fall carelessly when I kicked on tiny pebbles without knowing it's there obstructing my way. Out of curiosity, I'd venture elsewhere & maybe will bump against some cur playing with curio. It's forbidden, yet they heck care. I may find them outrageous but some may find them courageous to play with fire. Ask myself will I want to be like them? My answer is certainly NO. Why? Because it's silly, gets you no where why still waste time? I move on again. This time, I'm back on the same track but I won't idle about, I increase my speed to jog instead for I know I have miss out the front view when I distracted about.
Again, my heart was pacing hard with excitement. This time, I was sidetrack again as I want to find a Shortcut to walk to reach the front where maybe I can find a new Opening or I can get to see a beautiful scenery. As I walked I've wondered what's it's like at the front. I dunno my destination, I'm walking towards a Unknown place where I heard a myth saying you will find "Happiness" towards the end. But if you follow the path....u will....(some may say it's unwise of you to think a shortcut). Yes..if u believe in urself u can do it...you won't sidetrack. I was wrong to rely on whatever was a "shortcut" which turns out I miss my original path. I'm LOST! I regretted & felt sad, I start to think of giving up..turn back I may be back to square 1...to continue is a dead end...(both ways have made me spent too much time wandering about). To rely on my intiution to make a U-turn will also have to go through a rather long way to be back on track again. This time I may be right too, to go back to the original path & must not lead the old wrong path - (sidetracks).
Will I choose to give up or give myself a chance to rely on my intiution?
Wanderer: Violice
