Those were the Times

Never say Ever.

Those were the Times.
Bare it out from Heart.
We say forever deeply.
We spelt L.O.V.E.
Nodded our heads in agreement.
Took Vows ever-lastingly.

But ever-ness, did not come true.
It vanished just like that.
Once & for All...

Gone nowhere...unfound.

Can't be blamed....not that you ever wanted it to happen..it juz happened.
No one to take the blame, it's fate people said.

Gone with the wind, to where u'd be..
If u were over "there", where will it be?

Be loved, Be cherished.
By HIM..& Him...& Us!!!

U never broke ur promise or ur vows, cux u never meant it to happen at all.
All of us understand, under circumstances like these.

Don't feel bad, to leave.
We will always miss u.
Always~

Author: Violice Neo

Bare it all

It's her 2nd mth anniversary...
Can't help but watever things or route associated with her makes me feel so sad.

I walked the route she used to take last night, I realized it was the same route I'd be walking many times, many days, many years...but this time round I felt my footsteps becoming heavier, my breath getting heavier...my tears start to stream out.

My mind was filled with her images, the more I dig out my memories I will sob badly.
My heart ached so much, I missed her so badly.

Why things become this way? So suddenly, unprepared.
Even till now, I can pretend to avoid unthinking, but I can never avoid the way of Acceptance.

So much more to say, yet left unspoken.
So much things to do, yet unable to put hands on.
So many hopes unable to fulfill.
So many wishes not yet send out.
Undone lists~a thousand entries.

How...When....Why.....

Those are the questions, thrown backwards.
So sad. So un-just.
It's never enough to say contented with Life.

How many times do we asked ourselves are we content with what we had?
I do think twice in a day, 17 times in a week the same question...
I still don't feel content for less or for more.
I feel everyone of us should be feeling content of ourselves for being alive.

Sad to realize this much now.


Author: kViolice Neok

Nothin much ~ jus wanna eat Bak Kut Teh~ 咯

I'm Lovin' It~

Yum Yum Yum...

I'm thinking of Bak Kut Teh at the very moment.

It always have been our routine every Sunday morning having "Pork Bone Soup"..which we called it Bak Kut Teh in Teochew / Hokkien I supposed.

Anyway, it's 1.50am in the wee morning. I'm not sleeping yet tired.
Whenever it's night-time I would think of Jurong East Entertainment Centre & my late cousin-in-law.

Yea, u may ask..why was it linked up together for both different issue.

Becux JE Entertainment Ctr contained lots of memories of me during my school days.
It also brought back memories of my cousin-in-law when we were shopping 2yrs back at there. Where we had our movies & makan-ing session together in a grp.

Yea...all these was a Past.
U may agree all u can.

"Sao Sao..I reali missed u so much! I remembered the times when we photoedited the pics of "Xuan" together till late night"

I shall never forget those days. We chatted with "Gor Gor" at night in your room when "xuan" was asleep. We talked about anything, almost whatever can be our topic of the day.
I missed seeing you rocking "xuan" to slp everytime, ended up U slept first while she's still awake. Haha. U'd always growl or go grumbling like "baby, 你不睡。妈妈都要睡着咯!"
Yep, those were the days. Never be the same again.

I know none of us can really let go of ur shadows.
We always feel ur presence like u've never left though.

I really missed u alot, so much so much..do u know?!
I felt so sad...

Author: Violice Neo
(If only I could turn back Time, if only I could turn the clock..if only I could)

I'm becoming weird

Weird. (That's me)
I felt this way.

I dunno how to describe why I'm feeling like this, but its just a thought that pops up my mind.
I was writing an e-mail to a long-time friend, she said the voice was not like my own.
She meant that the way my words were interpreted was different from my own.

How differently? I dun understand.

She gave me another example: "when a group of people is writing a paper, they have to use the same voices (語氣) to ensure the consistency of their paper."

Oh, so. I still dun really get it.
As I dun understand what she meant highlighting my letter was not like my own was consider good or bad, due to the way of interpretation on my words.

But instead of asking too much, I told her I got it & tried to reason out with her.
I gave many reasons. But I dunno why I need to give so much reason.
Maybe I scared to know she said I've changed cold towards her.

I gave too many excuses about the consistency of a letter till we were going around the topic of "Consistency".

She was annoyed I supposed upon seeing what I've wrote.
I was vexed upon seeing her comment.
It wasn't something too good nor too bad.

Weird I'd become. What had happened to me? Getting worked up over a issue like this.
I'm unsure.

Author: Violice