Taking nap~

Last nite, I turned in quite late at 3plus in the wee morning to be exact.

Then guess what, I woke up early at 7am.
Not because I had to be up that early...but because of my special body alarm signal~ "Stomachache"!!

I was totally shag out after doing such big business...no mood to continue my dream liaoz...
A big flip off to my sleepy mood.

So I logon MSN & Facebook super early today.

Now, I'm facing stiff neck problem & dark round circles around my puffy eyes were so damn visible.
Hate it!!
I drank much water last nite before going to bed, ended up I wasn't sleepy so couldn't get to sleep.

*YAWN* ~ feeling sleepy & tired sia

I gonna take a short nap, to revitalize my freshness look.

*I dun often take naps, it's not my style/habit to do so*....

*Violice* ~ catch a nap at nearly 5pm

"Irrecusable" - Navi

This song taken from "奇怪三兄弟 / Strange Brothers" OST.

Song title: "Irrecusable"
Singer: Navi



Enjoy listening ~ (juz in case u can't listen to it due to d interruption of my backgrd music, pls click here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p0IlLwOk1pQ)

In the show - 수상한 삼형제 / Susanghan Samhyungje [Suspicious 3 Brothers].
I like the 3rd brother character - Kim Yi Sang (youngest, police officer), whom was acted by Lee Jun Hyuk 李俊赫。He's only 26 this yr, but he looked really cool in the drama. Though the character as a policeman makes him seems rather rash, confident & despotic but still he was suave.
Especially when he's acting with the co-actress Oh Ji Eun 吴智恩 as Joo Eo Young (excutive director of a jewellery business), Jun Hyuk will always becomes despotic towards her.

Nevertheless, I still like the show because of this sweet couple.

*Violice* - hooked on Kdrama

Movies which I had missed out

Here are the movies which I wanted to watch but had had to miss it.

*Salt
*Phua Chu Kang
*Haunted Changi
*Despicable Me
*Liar Game
*Love In Disguise
*Au Revoir Taipei
*After Shock
*Curse Of the Deserted
*The Last Exorcism
*YoGi Bear
*Chronicles Of Narnia
*Cats & Dogs (Revenge of the Kitty)

14 movies altogether!
Haiz Haiz Haiz.....

*Violice* ~ "waiting for VCDs / DVDs to be out in the market"

Lizard

There was this day I came upon a lizard sticking itself outside my window pane.

It was then I took pictures of it~

It indeed looked gross! (YUCK)

I think the lizard's whole body is sticking tightly onto the glass to stable itself from falling.

From the pics above it's visibly vivid~

*Violice*~"eek"

Sprained it again~ (-_-)

Eek! I sprain my foot once again~

Last thursday, 19 Jul 2010...
I had a fall back home in my kitchen, the floor was slippery & I trip. The impact was harsh & caused my foot to re-sprain again!!

SOB! SOB! SOB!

Unfortunately, I went back to see the chinese sinseh I visited earlier..he was shocked to know about my fall.
Haiz, guess after this u'd be sure he'd say "u need a longer recovery time".
Sad, worse my right foot's condition worsen & I had a 风湿 experience on 22 Jul.

23 Jul 2010, I went to see the chinese sinseh again...

24 Jul 2010
This time, I had to make a decision. I've resigned my job as part-time retail sales assistant.
As I unable to go for work at the moment, need to rest at home to recover fully.

Anyway, I feel moody.

*Violice*~"arghz..."

I'm being Temperamental lately~

I've been going through low mood swings recently.
Being a little temperamental lately makes me feel rather moody.

I'd wish I can get well soon. Although my feet was recovering, but still there's chances I'd get sprain again. In fact, I sprained my right foot again today which affects my recovery process.
My left foot was getting better now, though still swells slightly but not in pain anymore.

Guess it was something to be glad about till now.

Anyway, shall update my blog until here.
Bye peeps~


*~Violice feeling moody~*

Worse scenario of my feet sprain journey

All of a sudden, I get into this shit.

"Feet being sprain..yet dunno under what circumstances, when did I sprained it...I dun remember at all!! I only know the last thing I realize, it had swollen up."

Yeah, kind of funny of me not knowing it at all.
Till now, if it wasn't for what the chinese sinseh reminded me of that I must have sprained it unknowingly with a "tat" sound. I had been thinking about it...yep...I finally had a slight vision on my mind a few weeks back I did heard a "Tat" sound when I was about to walk or get up from my seat at my workplace...(just like any other time, I'd often move my leg with a "tat" sound like pulling effect at my knee or ankle area) which I heck care cause I thought it must have been due to stretching of a strain muscle or tired feet.

Who would have known it to be the beginning of a Bad sprain of a strain ligament?!

Alas! It just happened like that.
The next thing I know, I'm facing these painful moments... (really sucks)

I hadn't a choice, I have to face it. (Pushing myself to walk to work on that Friday - 30 Jul 2010).
Wish I dun have to walk so much was just Impossible, given that kind of condition I can't walk properly.
I merely pulled my legs to walk slowly, and I stood the whole day at work (though sales was pretty good)..I went home at about 9 plus deciding it was time for me to rest after "hard work"...I was thinking to go to a chinese doctor to do acupuncture to my right foot which was even more swollen than ever, however the clinic accepts no customers after 9pm. With no drugs or painkillers to subside my "pain" & "swelling"... I had a night sleep.

The next day, 31 Jul 2010...was a day to remember my poor foot (solely right)...I woke up finding it to be very very swollen. It actually swell up to the its double size.
I can't stand properly let it be walking. I had to see a doctor. It shall be a chinese sinseh.
My mum drove me to Jurong West, to visit my family chinese sinseh.. (whenever I had a bad sprain I go to him) be it me or my dad. Upon reaching there, I had a tough time slowly moving towards the clinic.

Phew~ I can say, it's the hardest thing I ever done...(never thought walking was a big task to me but then it was). Now thinking aback, my forehead was wet with cold sweat.

While waiting for my turn to go into the room, I spent time seating & chatting with a patient who also injuried her foot when jogging. So I was being asked why my foot turned out this way...I smiled & shook my head (I'm unsure myself too).

She was puzzled by my response. I said, "well I dunno how it happened...I juz know now both my feet isn't going to feel good. Especially now I need to rely on my left foot to do most of the walking while my right foot is like limping or say being forced to move along. I got a feeling my left foot is going to fail me sooner or later".

I was very right, thanks to my own prediction. I entered the room right after the lady patient & the chinese sinseh spotted both my feet were swollen. He told me I need to rest and no more walking for me in order not to strain both my legs under the pressure of my "big-sized" body.

Sinseh told me this upon seeing me limp in: "Why dun ya wait till tomorrow, 1 Aug then come huh? Do you know today is the last day of July?" The next moment he flipped open the patient file with his hands sliding towards these records - - {July 2002, July 2003, July 2004....till today...). It was then, I finally catch the ball. "Ah, oh my gosh it was all over ...why have got to be on July?? I always sprain my foot (be it left or right) on the month of July & visits him during that particular month(s)." He laughed & shook his head & agreed with me that July is a 'suay (unlucky)' mth for me. "Anyway, I can't wait till tomorrow even if I can, my feet can't...help help..." I desperately pleaded.

So I had my acupuncture & the sinseh try to do slight exercise to my feet to circulate my blood as well. I was shouting or say screaming in pain throughout the whole "working" session. I'm not scared of needles or heat (heat machine) but I'm in great pain of the movement caused to my feet when the sinseh forced my foot to bend in & out, up & down. Woah...can imagine lorz...it has already brought me pain...so by forcing it to bent is already over the limit..how to endure!?

Well, after bandaging both feet with herbs, I take a look & let out a heave of sigh.
[POOR FEET]

1 August 2010
It's terrible!! I can't move freely...it affected my sleeping position.
I had a tough night turning & tossing about.
Didn't slept well the previous night, it definitely affects my mood of the day.
So I'm moody. All I could do is to lie on the comfy sofa & try to rest all day...
Can't walk or do anything. I had taken long unpaid leave(s) to rest at home till recover...

I felt bad towards my boss. Didn't expect this to happen which also has made her worried about my condition & her business whereas unable to get someone to take over me temporarily.

Somehow, things take a change. (No routine)
I find it difficult to make my way to restroom when in need to unleash my urgency.
Help was given to me by my mum to half carry me to living room, kitchen & toilet.
Ended up I depend on Umbrella, Walking Sticks & my dad's mobile-chair (desk-chair) to access myself from here to there in my house. [Sad]

Probably due to lack of walking also my feet gradually starts to "numb" feeling poor blood circulation. I couldn't do anything when the numbness combines the pain around the ligament area brought me pain-ness. (I was lying down unable to relieve any pain after I take chinese medicine, as it's not even consider painkiller).

2nd - 11th August 2010
Nothing much happened, except went to Polyclinic on 10 Aug (Tues) for the intention of doing X-Ray. I spent 5hrs there waiting & going for urine test. The doc told me since my feet no longer feeling sharp pain I can skip the X-ray process. I described that my right foot was feeling "pulling effect" on the toes whenever I walked or stand too much. I asked was it due to the side effect of the ligament sprain I had earlier? He replied no, the ligament is recovering so I won't feel pain now but for full recovery takes about 2mths for most individuals. As for the toes pulling experience must be due to a sprain I had previously before this injury so is old ailment which haven't recovered. As for my left foot (also old ailment), was examined to be recover with no pain...but must be careful not to strain it further as I had a soft bone crack injury in the past.

But the doc raised an question for me: "so are you having regular menses lately?" I shook my head. My mum was aware of it so she looked at me. The doc suggest I should go for a checkup at KK hospital. But I need to check urine test first to make sure I'm not pregnant, which my mum forbade to initially & affirmly said I'm still single & not having pregnancy. The doc smiled & told her this is for the hospital records not that he wouldn't want to believe in my mum's saying. (Doctor cannot juz based on my mum's sole believing to do things her way right?) was what he said to her.

So I went for it, of cux the outcome is expected lahz...(positive).
A referral letter was then issued to me for waiting of the date to go to KK Hospital.
I was also given a medical appointment for two weeks later to return if my foot is experiencing any pain to have it checked for x-ray. (so subsequently, I'd have to do a full body checkup which my mum suggested & doctor advised me with a brochure to look through the different schemes & rates). I paid S$15.90 for everything & collected my painkillers & medication balm for my foot to use and went home soon after.

People said "once bad things happened, good luck eventually arrives by ur side." - I believe.
I thought I had a change of luck initially, when I received call(s) from this company (Uni Strategic) notifying me to go for an interview on 10 Aug (tues) for the position of "Corporate Sales Executuve". Guess what, I changed the interview dates twice due to unable to make it.
Ended up I choose to reject the offer (interview) on 13 Aug (fri).

Although my feet is getting better, my parents actually forbid me to move about lest my feet gets injury again & that my current workplace allows me to take unpaid leave easily as I may need to prepare myself to undergo more medical appointments and body checkups during the later part of the month . Dad as usual pours me cold water, mum was super duber worried & threaten me...

Yeah! U can think what can I say...I'm acting like a Ninny and choose to hide under my tortoise shell.
I scolded in my heart - "Hate myself" - (3times)

I truly regretted. Even some of my friends agreed with my mum's thinking, after I told them while the others hoped I go for it even though I'm considering giving up.
I resorted to use "deciding paper game" to ask for FATE.
(using two pcs of papers, each written "Yes, go" , "No, give up" on it to throw on the table & choose one to pick up for an answer..TWICE..i gotten the "No, give up" paper...so I finally didn't appear for the interview & cancel the appointment 8 hrs beforehand)!

HAHAHAHA (what a joke is playing on me)....just when I'm finally decide to give myself a boost-up self-confidence to forsake my current comfort zone to move ahead....(i got into this mess)

SAD sia...I did two Tarot cards reading (both mandarin & english versions) & the answer chills me.
Both repeated same answer, I have to be patient. I'm ongoing the process of wanting to change my current situation for the good. Of cux, Chance arrives at doorstep..I've confidence & motivation to strive on..but there are setbacks & hurdles to pull me back. Whenever decision was made the outcome will still be expected of me lies a good future ahead. [sounds good]
But how good can it be when my decision was to reject an opportunity I wanted, I pondered.

13 August 2010
Just like any other days, today I thought I'd stay at home to rest / to rot.
I'll be resuming work on Sunday, will also be taking my Basic Theory lesson 2 & Practice lessons on that morning, since I've forgo it on 1 Aug.

But I really feel like catching a Movie or go relax myself singing K.

The End!

*Violice* - on recovering process~ "feeling slightly better at the moment"

I must be Brave & Strong

So much had happened~
So much more to say~
Too much to think~
Too easy to let off~

Yet, not easy to let go.

*Choose to ignore & pretend nothing has happen...
Isit right or not?
Am I doing it clear or not...
Ain't me...

Recently, my lifestyle has a dramatic change.
I injuried or say Sprained my "feet" both left & right ones... (right foot's ligament, left foot - old aliment).
It was like house-bounded in order to have a good rest. (I enjoy it somehow in the end).
I dislike the fact I'm "limping"...felt almost giving up "walking properly"....too stress.
I can feel how it was to be like to be in the shoes of a "limp" living on one leg or losing both.
Scares me too, but makes me stronger. (worse thing, I had swollen lips which subsides later)

Though many blessings, critic remarks was given by some others...it must have bring me heart-stricken messages. Yep!! I know.
From this incident, I've seen who are Devil who are Evil who are the Least slightest insignificant. I knew who treat me Truly, who Likes for who I am, who appreciates me (living me)...

I thought I heck care, but it wasn't true at all.
I thought I can be cool-headed, un-emotional yet ended up I'd care how much they think of me, showing care towards me...didn't they? No..they did not.
It brokes my heart to pieces...of cux not becux I dun know... but that until this very day I still harbours the thinest hope...yet they let me down. They killed it, stepped on it...destroy it.....
Till this day, I finally understand & have been very clear that no better understanding, no matter how much I hope ... will still happen...(the more u dun wish it to appear, it came)

From this matter of fact, I'd face it bravely, strongly.
From now on, I shall only care for those I think is worthwhile. (pep up)
Those unworthy fella(s), I shan't spend any more time & give a damn attention to it/them.


For all it matters, it does.
For those un-matters, it sways.

To myself, for myself I will now look upon only to Me, my own-self!
I shall only see myself, cares about only me, myself & show interest to the worthwhile ones.

(^.^) ~ *~ "Being fresh, I embark on my own life-journey, a new start, a clear state of mind"