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Friday, June 12, 2015
To train my mind (Mind over Pain)
I'm loss of words to speak of my pain that I've been thru recently.
Breathless or Suffocated.
(Whichever is the word)
Self remedy or Self medicate my wounds
(be it physically & mentally)
*The latter I didn't do a good job in healing
So I rely on my own? I'm failed myself.
Foolishly I thought I'm gonna be fine.
The truth had depicts far off it.
Anyway I'm in need of help...
Whoever I approached stretched out the needy arm..and I grabbed it thankfully.
No amount of words can suffice my deepest yearns of concern.
Only "thank you" does relates that gratitude I had for them.
All I had is tons of appreciation and so much more that can I ever give...to those who reached out to me during my toughest period..the lowest point of my life.
The dark pit I sank...not yet the bottom but far off the opening. I struggled so much that I'm suffocated.
So many times I try not to cry but ended up I cried.
I'm breathless!
Sadness drowned me.
Struggling still..*Sloppiehead*
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
时间过得好快
就像我的“主题”所写的。感觉世界变得好快。。。
最近日本就是一个很好的例子了！
有许多人倍感无奈。。
也有些人认为这是日本的“报应”。。（如果你知道第二次世界大战的话，就明白）
但是。。那是上一代的人造孽，为何这代的人必须偿还呢？
所谓真有因果报应吗？还是凑巧呢？
“人在做，天在看” - 绝非让得虚名。
我也多多少少相信的。
-Violice aka Sloppiehead
最近日本就是一个很好的例子了！
有许多人倍感无奈。。
也有些人认为这是日本的“报应”。。（如果你知道第二次世界大战的话，就明白）
但是。。那是上一代的人造孽，为何这代的人必须偿还呢？
所谓真有因果报应吗？还是凑巧呢？
“人在做，天在看” - 绝非让得虚名。
我也多多少少相信的。
-Violice aka Sloppiehead
Monday, January 10, 2011
The Unknown
Unknown & Uncertainty are the scariest factors that pulls one down in life path...
Once, I remember thinking about "lost" is when u feel you are getting nowhere & being a nobody in life.
When I fell, I will try to climb up again..because I hate being left out. (imagine u fell down a hole & no one knows, no one to help or rescue u..but still u had to get out of that pit all by urself, alone.) Definitely it's scary, u'd cry for help but at the end of the day u will be independent.
In life, everyone wants to get to different places. Some walk quickly in front, others walk side by side together in the middle, a few will be left out at the back..and turns out to be the Last to reach the destination. Hence, no matter what or how..don't ever think of "Giving up". If you did, you will be back to the same dark hole again, back to square 1 again. If you are determine to go through the tough times, there you'll find some others who are also as lost as you. But you've company, you're not alone.
Under some circumstances, I choose to go my own way & leave the "group", cause the feeling of some people intentionally leaves you or ignores u is unbearable. Well because there are times when some people, whom dislikes you because of any reason they can find.
At times, you've to part with the rest of your loved ones as you don't need to always depend on others, there's a saying 天下没有不散的宴席. To be separate from them makes you a even Stronger person.
Uncertainties can be a real headache to me. (I dunno what I want to be)
Impossibilities are elsewhere, still I want to reach out to it.
The Unknown is frightening. (Is when I know what I need but can't get it yet)
Possibilities are everywhere, yet I'm afraid to go for it.
On my life path, there's never a straight path ahead. It's not entirely narrow nor crooked, stones can be found somewhere among borders..I walked & am still walking along it. I'd fall carelessly when I kicked on tiny pebbles without knowing it's there obstructing my way. Out of curiosity, I'd venture elsewhere & maybe will bump against some cur playing with curio. It's forbidden, yet they heck care. I may find them outrageous but some may find them courageous to play with fire. Ask myself will I want to be like them? My answer is certainly NO. Why? Because it's silly, gets you no where why still waste time? I move on again. This time, I'm back on the same track but I won't idle about, I increase my speed to jog instead for I know I have miss out the front view when I distracted about.
Again, my heart was pacing hard with excitement. This time, I was sidetrack again as I want to find a Shortcut to walk to reach the front where maybe I can find a new Opening or I can get to see a beautiful scenery. As I walked I've wondered what's it's like at the front. I dunno my destination, I'm walking towards a Unknown place where I heard a myth saying you will find "Happiness" towards the end. But if you follow the path....u will....(some may say it's unwise of you to think a shortcut). Yes..if u believe in urself u can do it...you won't sidetrack. I was wrong to rely on whatever was a "shortcut" which turns out I miss my original path. I'm LOST! I regretted & felt sad, I start to think of giving up..turn back I may be back to square 1...to continue is a dead end...(both ways have made me spent too much time wandering about). To rely on my intiution to make a U-turn will also have to go through a rather long way to be back on track again. This time I may be right too, to go back to the original path & must not lead the old wrong path - (sidetracks).
Will I choose to give up or give myself a chance to rely on my intiution?
Wanderer: Violice
Once, I remember thinking about "lost" is when u feel you are getting nowhere & being a nobody in life.
When I fell, I will try to climb up again..because I hate being left out. (imagine u fell down a hole & no one knows, no one to help or rescue u..but still u had to get out of that pit all by urself, alone.) Definitely it's scary, u'd cry for help but at the end of the day u will be independent.
In life, everyone wants to get to different places. Some walk quickly in front, others walk side by side together in the middle, a few will be left out at the back..and turns out to be the Last to reach the destination. Hence, no matter what or how..don't ever think of "Giving up". If you did, you will be back to the same dark hole again, back to square 1 again. If you are determine to go through the tough times, there you'll find some others who are also as lost as you. But you've company, you're not alone.
Under some circumstances, I choose to go my own way & leave the "group", cause the feeling of some people intentionally leaves you or ignores u is unbearable. Well because there are times when some people, whom dislikes you because of any reason they can find.
At times, you've to part with the rest of your loved ones as you don't need to always depend on others, there's a saying 天下没有不散的宴席. To be separate from them makes you a even Stronger person.
Uncertainties can be a real headache to me. (I dunno what I want to be)
Impossibilities are elsewhere, still I want to reach out to it.
The Unknown is frightening. (Is when I know what I need but can't get it yet)
Possibilities are everywhere, yet I'm afraid to go for it.
On my life path, there's never a straight path ahead. It's not entirely narrow nor crooked, stones can be found somewhere among borders..I walked & am still walking along it. I'd fall carelessly when I kicked on tiny pebbles without knowing it's there obstructing my way. Out of curiosity, I'd venture elsewhere & maybe will bump against some cur playing with curio. It's forbidden, yet they heck care. I may find them outrageous but some may find them courageous to play with fire. Ask myself will I want to be like them? My answer is certainly NO. Why? Because it's silly, gets you no where why still waste time? I move on again. This time, I'm back on the same track but I won't idle about, I increase my speed to jog instead for I know I have miss out the front view when I distracted about.
Again, my heart was pacing hard with excitement. This time, I was sidetrack again as I want to find a Shortcut to walk to reach the front where maybe I can find a new Opening or I can get to see a beautiful scenery. As I walked I've wondered what's it's like at the front. I dunno my destination, I'm walking towards a Unknown place where I heard a myth saying you will find "Happiness" towards the end. But if you follow the path....u will....(some may say it's unwise of you to think a shortcut). Yes..if u believe in urself u can do it...you won't sidetrack. I was wrong to rely on whatever was a "shortcut" which turns out I miss my original path. I'm LOST! I regretted & felt sad, I start to think of giving up..turn back I may be back to square 1...to continue is a dead end...(both ways have made me spent too much time wandering about). To rely on my intiution to make a U-turn will also have to go through a rather long way to be back on track again. This time I may be right too, to go back to the original path & must not lead the old wrong path - (sidetracks).
Will I choose to give up or give myself a chance to rely on my intiution?
Wanderer: Violice
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
Not much of a post-up, it's just mere thoughts. "Pure thoughts"
Well, am feeling quite vexing & moody recently.
I supposed some of my close pals should know why.
Don't feel like sharing my thoughts for now, as I'm dun wish to dip myself into the pit again.
Kind of stress & drain away emotionally, but physically was stable though. -_-"
Perhaps, that's the route to maturity we've to face eventually in part of our life.
Speaking of it, yesterday I received a shocking news..it was bad as to what I seem.
(she smsed me early in the morning ... and I woke up to read, there goes my sleepy bugs...)
My friend's guy broke up with her. (it should be "nearly broke up" to be exact)...
I'm not too sure about the reason to the breakup, hence I logon to my facebook a/c to view her shoutout status.
There she state her feelings with lotsa comments by her friends whom shown their concern to her current state.
Got to know that her guy recently got hook up with a lady whom he known less than 2 weeks, he actually fall in love with her. My friend was devastated for she was with him for 5 yrs & yet he choose over a 2 weeks companion over her. [多讽刺呀!]
Unforgiving! Not to any woman out there can tolerate such a boyfriend.
Moreover, he was already my friend's fiance. (They got engaged in 14 February 2009)
Should it be for any reason or explanation to the fact he actually two-timed her in such a way, he was still talking about making conditions with her! (What a Asshole!)
Sad to know about this incident, didn't expect such a thing to happen to them.
Probably becux 10hrs ago they were still lovey dovey, the next moment...they ended up as haters.
Find it hard to accept though.
Sometimes, Fate is really unpredictable. If you were to go against it, what will happen??
Most of the time, we just follow or leave it to "Fate" to decide our lives.
[Can we really fight our way out to oppose "Fate"? ]
Come to think of it, I certainly am not prepare to try out now. Not that I've the Will to do so.
Unless, I've 99.9% of Confidence in myself that I can Change my Life & I can't hold on to my Fate.
I doubt anyone can do it..even if they have the confidence they might not be 99% sure to make it their way.
Though, we may say.."You never try, you never know you can Succeed..you hold ur own Fate."
But when it comes to action, it's still an Different situation.
Nevertheless, we shall never admit or Bow to our own "Fate" at times.
For now we understand, we can still do something & act on our behalf. (That's enough.)
Otherwise, we shall just keep our mind shut & live on to what is lay out infront of us.
By: Violice
I supposed some of my close pals should know why.
Don't feel like sharing my thoughts for now, as I'm dun wish to dip myself into the pit again.
Kind of stress & drain away emotionally, but physically was stable though. -_-"
Perhaps, that's the route to maturity we've to face eventually in part of our life.
Speaking of it, yesterday I received a shocking news..it was bad as to what I seem.
(she smsed me early in the morning ... and I woke up to read, there goes my sleepy bugs...)
My friend's guy broke up with her. (it should be "nearly broke up" to be exact)...
I'm not too sure about the reason to the breakup, hence I logon to my facebook a/c to view her shoutout status.
There she state her feelings with lotsa comments by her friends whom shown their concern to her current state.
Got to know that her guy recently got hook up with a lady whom he known less than 2 weeks, he actually fall in love with her. My friend was devastated for she was with him for 5 yrs & yet he choose over a 2 weeks companion over her. [多讽刺呀!]
Unforgiving! Not to any woman out there can tolerate such a boyfriend.
Moreover, he was already my friend's fiance. (They got engaged in 14 February 2009)
Should it be for any reason or explanation to the fact he actually two-timed her in such a way, he was still talking about making conditions with her! (What a Asshole!)
Sad to know about this incident, didn't expect such a thing to happen to them.
Probably becux 10hrs ago they were still lovey dovey, the next moment...they ended up as haters.
Find it hard to accept though.
Sometimes, Fate is really unpredictable. If you were to go against it, what will happen??
Most of the time, we just follow or leave it to "Fate" to decide our lives.
[Can we really fight our way out to oppose "Fate"? ]
Come to think of it, I certainly am not prepare to try out now. Not that I've the Will to do so.
Unless, I've 99.9% of Confidence in myself that I can Change my Life & I can't hold on to my Fate.
I doubt anyone can do it..even if they have the confidence they might not be 99% sure to make it their way.
Though, we may say.."You never try, you never know you can Succeed..you hold ur own Fate."
But when it comes to action, it's still an Different situation.
Nevertheless, we shall never admit or Bow to our own "Fate" at times.
For now we understand, we can still do something & act on our behalf. (That's enough.)
Otherwise, we shall just keep our mind shut & live on to what is lay out infront of us.
By: Violice
Friday, September 10, 2010
Flare up!!
Super angry sia!
This has been d 3rd time that IDIOTIC fella called so late at night & dun let out a sound.
Trying to act MUTE? SPEECHLESS? SOUNDLESS?
Go become a MIME ACTOR / ACTRESS lahz to do so in theatres.
Stop wasting my time to wake me up & pick up the calls without sound when I hello-ed so many times. I'm sick of it!
D 1st time many mths back, dunno which mth / day (u lucky I nearly forgotten), u paused for 7mins...& hung up!!
Now, today u did it again...2nd time, 3rd time u still dare to hang up on me~
u CRAZY isit??!! TOO FULL CANNOT SLP ISIT!!!!
OR are u Pervert? Sicko? Bastard?
DARN IT - DAMN U !@*$%^&*@^#% (*damnation*)
How dare U!!!!!!
I swore, if u "ganina"(hokkien) DARE to make calls to me again...u shall GET IT from me real hardcore SCOLDINGS...I'll make SURE u will receive a bunch of BLOODY HELL WORDS into ur ears & locked it for the rest of the night in ur slp!!!!!
有种就不要用PRIVATE ID打来, scare to let pple see ur number isit!! DUN CALL!!!
你真她X的可恶，可悲，可恨!!!! 去你这“晚八蛋, 贱骨头”~~~
SUPER FED-UP!!!!! STRUCK WITH FURY ANGER!!
*Violice* - "furiously dangerous - dun dare me I warn"
This has been d 3rd time that IDIOTIC fella called so late at night & dun let out a sound.
Trying to act MUTE? SPEECHLESS? SOUNDLESS?
Go become a MIME ACTOR / ACTRESS lahz to do so in theatres.
Stop wasting my time to wake me up & pick up the calls without sound when I hello-ed so many times. I'm sick of it!
D 1st time many mths back, dunno which mth / day (u lucky I nearly forgotten), u paused for 7mins...& hung up!!
Now, today u did it again...2nd time, 3rd time u still dare to hang up on me~
u CRAZY isit??!! TOO FULL CANNOT SLP ISIT!!!!
OR are u Pervert? Sicko? Bastard?
DARN IT - DAMN U !@*$%^&*@^#% (*damnation*)
How dare U!!!!!!
I swore, if u "ganina"(hokkien) DARE to make calls to me again...u shall GET IT from me real hardcore SCOLDINGS...I'll make SURE u will receive a bunch of BLOODY HELL WORDS into ur ears & locked it for the rest of the night in ur slp!!!!!
有种就不要用PRIVATE ID打来, scare to let pple see ur number isit!! DUN CALL!!!
你真她X的可恶，可悲，可恨!!!! 去你这“晚八蛋, 贱骨头”~~~
SUPER FED-UP!!!!! STRUCK WITH FURY ANGER!!
*Violice* - "furiously dangerous - dun dare me I warn"
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
Yep~ I'm in love with Rainy days!!
What a title to start with the day!!
Indeed I love rainy days like today, it has been raining since morning till now.
D weather is so cooling, that I'm falling in love with it.
I've been relaxing myself at home for the past few weeks (a mth to be exact), kinda bored too.
This morning, woke up at 10 plus, washed up..ate my breakfast (Buns: pink lotus red paste bun & chicken meat buns) and a cup of hot "Long Jin Green Tea" - (good-grade chinese green tea) to go along with on this rainy weather. It was Splendid, I must declare!!
After the meal, I logon to Facebook & came across this quotation which I liked & truly agree:
"The fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself" - Paulo Coelho
Does it sounds right, feels right to you? (giggling)
*Yawn* - Opps! I'm getting tired now.
Shall take a nap then, see u peeps (pals)~
*Violice* - "Byeee~~~ (flying kisses..*muacks*)"
Indeed I love rainy days like today, it has been raining since morning till now.
D weather is so cooling, that I'm falling in love with it.
I've been relaxing myself at home for the past few weeks (a mth to be exact), kinda bored too.
This morning, woke up at 10 plus, washed up..ate my breakfast (Buns: pink lotus red paste bun & chicken meat buns) and a cup of hot "Long Jin Green Tea" - (good-grade chinese green tea) to go along with on this rainy weather. It was Splendid, I must declare!!
After the meal, I logon to Facebook & came across this quotation which I liked & truly agree:
"The fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself" - Paulo Coelho
Does it sounds right, feels right to you? (giggling)
*Yawn* - Opps! I'm getting tired now.
Shall take a nap then, see u peeps (pals)~
*Violice* - "Byeee~~~ (flying kisses..*muacks*)"
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